“A sign of growth is being okay with not being okay.”
Let that quote sit with you for a moment.
For most humans, being out of their element or comfort space is simply unacceptable.
A day to day routine is set & never ventured from. A sudden rustle of those feathers & the chickens fly the coupe. I understand that feeling, my friend. Boy, do I get it.
Throw me out of my quiet, calm bubble & the madness inside me becomes overwhelming. After some fight, a bit of pouting & the ever famous ‘resting bitch face’, I settle into unknown territory & make myself comfortable in the craziness surrounding me.
Over the last 3-4 years, my life has been an ever moving, set down a finished task to be reaching for the next kinda pace. I don’t think I’ve had time to blink more than 10 times! I firmly hated the lifestyle I now live to the fullest. 5 years ago, this was not me in any form. I was much more of the “eh, it will get done when it gets done” or “I just don’t feel like it” kinda girl. I laugh at that at this very moment, my life would certainly not wait for me to get off my lazy ass & do it when I actually felt like it.
Let me tell you, the first day of the last 4 years was ungodly uncomfortable for me. I was NOT okay with not being okay. Overwhelmed was an understatement & I wore it like a leather jacket. I didn’t know how to manage one stress freak out to the next emotional meltdown. I had no idea how to live in such an unfamiliar state that I sunk before I even thought of swimming. I couldn’t tell you when it actually clicked, and I remembered those long forgotten swimming lessons, but I did. I spit out the inhaled water, wash the taste of salt from my mouth & dried my hair.
When I look back on everything I’ve come face to face with over the years, 9 times out of 10 I wasn’t okay. I’ve been knocked down more times than I care to admit. But, I certainly grew in those painful times. To my distaste, I thrive in uncomfortable, not okay situations of life. When everything is, in my definition not oh fucking kay, those are the moments I grow deep & strong.
When faced with uneasy situations in life you have two options, throw your hands up & let life roll you over OR you push back & show not being okay is okay!
Take your time, throw a toddler level fit for a minute. Then darling, dust yourself off, throw your head back & laugh at the mess you let yourself become & grow your roots deep in the lessons you’ve learned. <3